Sunday, August 28, 2011

Friendship Set on Fire

The more I think of you, of us, my eyes start to hurt.  I've kept it a secret, taming my heart and soul of this indescribable thing I feel.  I'm such a fool.  Every moment I spend with you brings something new into my heart, a new flame to blow out. You don't realize it but you are more profitable than silver, more precious than rubies, more valuable to me than gold.  Quietly in the dark of my dreams, I think of you and become lost.  I'm waiting for thunder to capsize this basket of endless thoughts, tossing upon the waves.  I'm secretly waiting, collecting anything real to quench my thirst.  

I want to end this.  I don't know what the hell is wrong with me, but today I can't think straight.  I can't concentrate and I can't let you go for a second.  I miss you, I miss you, I fucking miss you. I feel as though I might go insane with this weight on my shoulders.  My heart hurts and I no longer want to compare this love for you.  

Instead I'll feed the birds with the words I've left to say, 
expecting the wind to fly them back, back to May.
You taunt me with your conquests, like with a loaded gun
and I can't help but question, which one of us has won.

O'Lord give me something new to say; wipe this guilty pain away.
O'Lord give me something new to sing; something new worth hoping in.


  1. Swept me away! I blinked with surprise when I realised I wasn't in that person's head.

  2. Hi,
    I loved your post about adopting an Armenian child from an orphanage. My wish also is that I can one day help the people of Armenia. I've started a little company, where I hope to be able to use the proceeds to benefit the Armenian people and especially the new generation. Take a look at my company ( or myin2ition on facebook). I wish you luck in reaching your goal. I hope to achieve mine by making our people proud to show they are Armenian.
    Best of luck to you!

  3. This is an amazing post. Did you write it or find it somewhere??

  4. I definitely wrote it myself, thanks :)

  5. Beautiful. The picture is just lovely too:)